So 今天是我的生日

今年的生日，只想安静的过，简单的过，家人都在身边就好了。

过去的三个月

人生，总得经过风风雨雨，一定不会那么平平淡淡的。过去三个月，发生了好多好多的事情。

自从我正式从吉隆坡回来北马工作后，太多事情发生了。工作仍然不顺利那就不多说了，往好方面想，只是过度时期，一定会好的。

回来后，主要让我最感到有点伤感的是，我的家人… 父亲，发现他，白发多了，憔悴了，身为儿子的我，很遗憾，没本事好好孝敬他。母亲，也一样，一直担心我。阿婆，回来后发现她病了，有点喘。老婆，一直为我撑着这个家。我很爱他们，真的，因此，我决定不再往外头跑了。宁可赚少些，都要有多些时间陪伴家人。

12月23日，又换了新工作，上班第一天超级累，结果晚上10点就睡着了。姑姑们都过来看阿婆，因为阿婆已经行动不便了。她，得了肺癌。可是家人决定不让她知道，因为担心阿婆会很消极。12月24日凌晨1点，我被老婆惊醒了，老婆说，阿婆没有了… 我，呆了。急忙赶下床，我真的脚软了。爸妈都在阿婆房里痛哭，我看似冷静，可是我心疼到极限。我急忙联络姑姑们。

今天，阿婆离开我们两个星期了，仍然很不舍。

爸今天，终于病倒了。他这两个星期也过得蛮艰辛的。阿婆的离去，爸比任何人更难过。阿婆去世一个星期后，爸接了信，算是升级到更大型的学校当校长，可是这一升，压力更加百倍。

看着他生病，真的难过。唉，明天他还得去那么远上班。

So I became lazy

Ever since I joined that ex company and left and joined a new company which I am working with now, I feel that I have less motivation and become a lazy person. I'm just... Like don't know where the hell is my spirit of fighting has gone... Argh... I hate myself!

So I am "changing"

Finally, today is my last day with this company... I think, I'm glad that I left...

Also, I'm happy because yesterday a company called me and I got hired! Hooray! Appreciate the opportunity given!

So I have finally decided

After serious consideration for a couple of days, I have tendered my resignation...

目前的我

自从加入了这家公司后，我...
- 变懒惰了
- 的斗志大大减低了
- 竟然在工作的时候看戏，玩游戏
- 已经对好多事情都不是那么关心了
- 开始懒惰讲话了
- 对相机有点抗拒了
- 已经分不出什么是对错了
- 忘记了星期六和星期日是什么颜色了
- 非常的想家
- 好怀念和老婆在一起的时间
- 开始看很多剧情片，有时候甚至借这些戏来逼自己哭一哭
- 认识了很多和我一样，工作上都很不开心的伙伴
- 对吉隆坡的路更加认识了
- 看到了好多以前不曾看过的工作方式
- 还是一样不喜欢拍他们的马屁
- 忘记了什么是自由
- 变成了一个球，爽爽就被踢去这里那里的
- 真的做得很不高兴
- 学会了一种武功！这武功的名称是“坐功”
- 看到LINE就堵懒
- 还有好多好多啊！一时间实在想不起那么多！

So I got it back

This morning, as usual was being asked to standby here and there. Ended up at Kuchai Avenue. So I came here earlier and went to a coffee shop for a quickie.

I was browsing some stuffs on my Nexus 4, then food arrived and I put my phone on the chair I'm sitting at between my legs. After finished my food, so I just walked away and came to our outlet.

While trying to update my status, realized that gosh! I left my phone...

So I went back to the coffee shop and looked for it. Unfortunately the CCTV was down and I was there looking for help from the boss. She helped me to ask around and tried to call my phone too. Too bad it has been shut off.

I was thinking probably no luck already. So then a staff of the coffee shop came to me and hand over my phone... She said I left it there and she pick it up. The phone is turned off already... So well i thank her and thanked the people there. They even said she is clean and honest bla bla bla... But to me, well I am thankful she returned my phone but she is guilty... She is planning to just not return to me... Else, she won't turn off my phone... Right?

So I just got it back...

So this is what happening here

What is happening to the company I am working here? Well, from what I can see... The staffs, are no longer happy working in the company... They want to be treated fairly, nicely. Company can simply deduct their commission without informing... They can just cut this and that without even telling you verbally and then you will suffer from confusion. This ain't healthy at all.

I am not sure if this happens to other company...

Taking Medical Leave is not "Allowed"... If one really sick, if he or she still can walk, he or she MUST come to work also! Weekend, you are not allowed to take Medical Leave, or else your commission will be deducted...

Taking annual leave, say your cousin or someone got married and you wanna apply a day off, you MUST pass the ORIGINAL invitation card in order to get your leave approved!

Being a Manager in this company, you got to stay FULL DAY at the outlets and you have no weekend! Yes, you are right, your day off is only available during WEEKDAYS! Gosh!

Medical leave again... The BIGGEST boss in the company always emphasize on this... When he was young, he never take a single day off for medical leave. Even he is sick, as long as he can walk, he will work. No matter how, he will just work, work... and work... Ya, as a boss, he has to... but being a staff, if the company treats them nicely, I believe one will do the same as him also. But IT IS NOT!

Many other unhappy scenarios which I have seen in this company... Ya, too much... So then I have just posted a post on my FB a moment ago: If one works happily in a company, die die also, the one will die hard hard for the company; but vice versa, one not so happy with the company, die die also the one won't give a fuck to anything you ask... so, just go fly kite and die... ya, that's me... If I am working happily in a company, I will do whatever my superior ask for and I will even put a lot of initiatives on my job... but if I am not happy working in a company, it will be no-effort-at-all... 

So I miss her like crazy

I miss my wife so much... Really miss her... Not sure how long more to go for me to stay with her... Phew... The time is bad... Miss her so much... :(

So lazy to work

Somehow lately feel so lazy to work... It seems like working without a proper direction is killing. Argh! Dammit...